« [Dear_Trent_#_19] | Main | [Pictures_of_You_#_11:_Old_Faithful] »


[Words_of_Misery: shame-entity]

words by Gabriel

i tried to keep myself from feeling all these things
god may hate the way i think and all it brings

mocking eyes that stare
mouths that shout their homo drone
never knew a place that i could call home

never say that i
am normal and okay
reject my sense of self
and everything i say
and all that's left is me

father, hard to please
you ran away
the words you always preached
now make sense another way

say your love is right
you've never felt this way
but how do i pray for you when you're gay?

never say that i
am normal and okay
reject my sense of self
and everything i say
and all thats left is me
pushed everyone away
alone, now who am i?


Posted by Gabriel in the_words_of_misery | Permalink


TrackBack URL for this entry:

Listed below are links to weblogs that reference [Words_of_Misery: shame-entity]:


Gabriel, I really, really think that your father's shame needn't be yours. You need to learn to love yourself, and embrace your own love. If there's anything I believe, it's that no love should dare not speak it's name. We all need all the love we can get.

You know I love you. I'm sorry I was mean.

Posted by: Dierdre | Sep 14, 2005 1:07:11 AM

Awww Gabriel, sweetie, that's what we needed from you was a moment of vulnerability. I love you, too.

Tell Gabriel you love him, bitches!

Posted by: Jessica | Sep 14, 2005 3:54:48 AM

By the way, I say 'bitches' with the utmost respect and love. Carry on, bitches.

Posted by: Jessica | Sep 14, 2005 3:58:49 AM


I LOVE YOU! Always be proud of who you are...and hold your head high.

love & hugs,
PS, Jess, I understood what you meant by bitches.

Posted by: bex | Sep 14, 2005 5:38:02 AM

Gabriel, how can you let Dierdre turn you into a blubbering sissy like this? BUCK UP, for Chrissakes.

I e-mailed Alex, FYI.

Posted by: Jane | Sep 14, 2005 6:51:33 AM


Of course I love you, even when you're being a total bitch.

I don't know what the fuck is going on...I think I'm missing a lot of backstory. But I would just like to point out that there is NO shame in being who you are. It's only mindless bigoted fuckwits who constantly scream that there's something abnormal and sinful about homosexuality. They scream really loud, so then everyone believes it--even gay people!

I happen to live in a fairly gay-friendly city, and in the church I've been going to, we've got female priests who are in publicly acknowledged lesbian relationships, and everyone is cool with it. There is NO reason that someone should feel ashamed and alone and freakish for being gay in 2005.

You know how many words in the Bible JC devoted to homosexuality? 0. In fact, he never really talked about sex at all, being more concerned with things like religious hypocrisy and taking care of the poor.

So to whoever or whatever is going on, be proud and happy of the person that you are. Ignore the mindless bigoted fuckwits...they'll get theirs in the end for passing down the needless hate and guilt.

Posted by: maise | Sep 14, 2005 7:45:20 AM

Oh, mon cher. I wish I could just give you a comforting embrace and tell you that everything will be okay, okay? You are very brave to voice your words like this. And I sing it along to Trent's song and your words sonne plus mieux que ces de lui.

Posted by: Mimi | Sep 15, 2005 8:06:40 AM

<3<3 Gabe <3<3

I got a big old bear hug for you!

Posted by: Nicole | Sep 15, 2005 7:32:49 PM

The comments to this entry are closed.