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Somedays, you really wish you'd gone out and gotten shitfaced instead of coming home from class.

As most of you know, Dierdre and I are active over on the Echoing the Sound forums. We catch some shit from time to time, from the occasional hypocrite or misguided carnivore, but mostly the people there are good, intelligent people who are there to celebrate the work of M.T. Reznor (no matter how misguided he may be acting lately).

Well after Advanced Photolab I came home today to catch up on some work here on the site, only to find out that Dierdre, with no classes until the afternoon, had spent all fucking day long stirring up trouble on the boards with some guy claiming to be Jesus Christ (the link above is for one of the members-only forums; my apologies. If you're not registered, I recommend it despite the bumpy road it can be).

As she's known to do, D fired up Jesus, a couple other folks, and was acting like a total obnoxious, hateful woman on a warparth. To top it all off, it then seemed that one of the moderators put a Filter on the name of our site on the boards.

What does this mean? Well it basically meant that if you typed "Wearing These Chains" on echoing the sound and published a post, you wouldn't see "Wearing These Chains"; you would see "Dumbfucks From Behind The Orange Curtain". Fortunately, it seems this filter was short-lived and has since been removed, but readers of both Wearing These Chains and ETS may have already noted that this is the second filter Dierdre has instigated; the first was a few weeks ago: if you type in her name "Dierdre" it is instantly changed to "buttplug" -- and this one IS still in effect.

EDIT: It seems the powers-that-be at ETS are WTC readers; in response to this post The Dierdre Filterâ„¢ has been updated to now change her name to "cervixlump" rather than "buttplug". While they get a +2 for inventiveness, invoking cancer earns them a -6 on the Clever Scale, netting this new filter a total score of -4. Better luck next time, Mods, and Thanks For Reading Wearing These Chains!

Yes, granted, buttplug is a pretty lame name-calling choice, and I really wish they'd tried a bit harder (at least a minor-league "fucktard", c'mon, but "buttplug"? What's next, "poopy pants"?), but that's not the fucking point! The point is that when we started Wearing These Chains, I thought it was to spread a love and appreciation for the majesty and genius of one man: Michael Trent Reznor. It was not meant as a place for hate (though I guess I may be in the minority of NIN fans there), and it was not meant as a place for grandstanding bullshit. (I mean seriously Dierdre; that whole "I am impervious" nonsense you put into your Christ exchange? What the hell was that about, anyway?)

I don't know why you're doing what you're doing, and I don't understand it. I don't know who you even are anymore... and now my own apartment feels like some place I'm not supposed to be, and I'm seeing things I really shouldn't see.

I don't know what to do, Dier, I really don't. And even if you were home, I wouldn't be talking to you about it, because you'd just be in your room listening to "Physical" for the ten thousandth time. On the computer. Making more people hate you.

Maybe it's because you really hate yourself.


the lonely room

echoing the sound
the sounds of crucifixtion
that you have brought upon us
why do you stand so proud?
so strong
so (in)tolerable
you are the hate you breathe
(and breathe the hate you want to be)

i remember a dewy dawn
of sanctified perfection
insurrection to injustice
all for the love of purity

but you've burned it all away
you've burned it all away
your fist and your fight
and you make me want to hate again
this road can be so hard
when the traveller grows weary
but when I saw your face every day
it makes me want to scream hell's fury

don't you fucking know?
not what you are
but what you've become?
so hateful
such rage
I hold myself in temper's cage
so i don't strike out
to erase the one you have become

you can blacken the sky
with the poison of your mind's eye
but it won't get you any further
further from your deepest dark inside
but you've pushed so hard away
with your jokes and your lies and your
pithy innuendo
all i know for sure
is that i won't be there
on the day that we all
have to say

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Gabriel, don't you think you're over-reating? Dierdre does NOTHING but extoll the majesty and genius of Trent Reznor, even while you bring the hate all the time. Dierdre may have gotten her hands dirty arguing with the rabble on ETS, but she's better than they are. They're a bunch of bullies.

Dierdre is alright man. Maybe she's a bit sex-crazed, but she's alright.

Posted by: minion | Jun 27, 2005 9:54:21 PM

You don't live with her, minion. All I can say is that life is complicated.

I'm just glad I've got band practice tonight. This has been a crappy day.

Posted by: Gabriel | Jun 27, 2005 9:57:34 PM


This is pretty fucking RICH, coming from the guy who does nothing but spew his disappointment at every last thing Trent Reznor does. How do you call that spreading love and appreciation? All you ever do is chuckle to yourself over coming up with things to call him like "EMPTY Reznor", while I try to argue that he deserves more support, after years of sacrifice, from us, the people who get to consume his suffering.

The fact that you care more about sucking up to the haters at ETS than you do about me, your friend, partner, and roommate says a fucking lot about you, Gabriel, and it isn't pretty. I can't believe you said I was no better than Saturnine and Mormolyke. Those two bitches do nothing but hate, hate, hate... and in Satunine's case, write lame fucking poetry.

I may be sexually obssessed with Trent Reznor, but AT LEAST I CAN FUCKING WRITE!

Don't bother calling me, I won't answer. I think you might be right that I need to find someplace else to live. I'm going to stay at Rory's.


Posted by: Dierdre | Jun 28, 2005 6:51:52 PM

aww thats really rude that the MODERATORS would do that...it can't be a very good forum to post at if they would do that.

oh and Dierdre who isn't sexually obssessed with Trent Reznor? :)

p.s i really like your blogs i wish you would write more often. Trents hair throught the ages is really good!

Posted by: Jen | Jun 28, 2005 7:19:48 PM

Thanks, Jen. That means a lot to me right now. The Mods at ETS don't really bother me though - they're just being bullies because they can, and it makes them look stupider than it makes me look.

What does hurt me is the way Gabriel has sided with them. I feel like he's not the guy I've been best friends with all this time. He says he feels like he doesn't know me anymore, but he's the one who's really turned hate-filled lately. I don't know how much longer I'll be writing on Wearing These Chains.

Posted by: Dierdre | Jun 28, 2005 8:15:54 PM

oh don't go, you and Gabriel ALWAYS argue but it will pass, i would have said the same things to that jesus poser.

i kinda agree with minion, Gabriel, they ARE just bullies, and that fight with jesus isnt a big deal really...you will never meet those people in real life so who the hell cares what they think. but you know Dierdre, and live with her, so maybe you should have sided with her?

Posted by: Jen | Jun 28, 2005 8:53:36 PM

Jen, I'm really sorry you and the rest of the readers are having to see this in public like this -- this [Antichrist] post was an attempt at breaking through a wall that has been steadily building over the past few weeks, and one I know not how to breach.

I'm going to be addressing this soon in an update to the site, but suffice to say that given the hate and vitrol of Dierdre's comments above, that's not (as M.T. Reznor would say) a side of the glass one wants to be sure they are on.

And one more thing Dierdre: I call him M.T. Reznor because his full name is Michael Trent Reznor. And it's not something new that I've started doing as empty mocking; it's on the very first post I ever made to WTC: [Maybe_Just_Once].

Get your facts straight before you start hating -- this isn't Jesus you're fucking with.

Posted by: Gabriel | Jun 28, 2005 9:25:38 PM

come on, kids.

kiss and make up. i can't go to bed knowing that the dynamic duo of goth are at war with each other.

gabriel, dierdre's posts on ets have never been anything but smart and well-placed. yours, too.

that 'jesus' character isn't worth arguing with. his (her?) writing sucks and is no match for either of you.

please, please, please, grow up a bit, mmmmkay? i've truly grown to love you two and depend on this site.

i have no shame.

Posted by: queer as . . . | Jun 28, 2005 9:41:01 PM

its very true, dont let this tear you guys apart!

i really do enjoy this site and your comments!

i dont really wanna sleep either until i know what happens

ps. it is so not 9:41pm were i live...try like 1am lol

Posted by: Jen | Jun 28, 2005 9:56:25 PM

Hey Jen --

Sorry we're keeping you up. Unfortunately Dierdre's not even here right now; I got a call from Rory in L'orangerie Stank and apparently she's crashing over there tonight (apparently she wants to mess with my band now, too).

*sigh*. I dunno. These things happen, though. Hopefully we'll all feel better in the morning.

Posted by: Gabriel | Jun 28, 2005 10:19:33 PM

I've added some additional info into the original post up above (see the EDIT).

Posted by: Gabriel | Jun 28, 2005 10:35:13 PM

There, my first post on ETS, and it was a rude one...

stupid fuckers, how can the mods abuse there power like that?

what is this world coming to...

Posted by: Jen | Jun 29, 2005 11:10:29 AM

so . . .

should i walk away undaunted?\

i refuse.

pull yourselves together.

i'm too drunk to get home without an update.

in proud ets style, i've got a gun to my head, counting down until the next update.

one . . .

two . . .

three . . .

four . . .

Posted by: queer as . . . | Jun 29, 2005 10:56:16 PM

Come now, Mr. Queer. I think we all know that holding a gun to your head is straight-up WTC-style.

"ETS-style" is more like taking 5 vicodin and claiming you've overdosed while holding the Vermont Teddy Bear your great grandmother gave you.

Posted by: Gabriel | Jun 30, 2005 11:26:57 AM

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